Fear - a poem

Hey guys! I know, it's been forever since I've posted. And I'm sorry about that. >.< I'm still drawing and stuff, its just most of it is not for the blog, so yeah. XD

I'm not posting art today; I felt like I needed to share this poem I created awhile back. I hope you enjoy it!

And I hope you know that, no matter how much fear seems to over take you, God's love is bigger, far bigger. Lean into His love and rest. Let the fear drop.

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All this fear I feel, 

I can't breathe, 

I can't speak, 

it's too much.

It's a weight, 

It's hard,

It's cold,

It's cruel.

My stomach knots,

My breath catches, 

My pulse quickens, 

My heart pounds.

This fear I feel, 

I need to let it go.

I need help, 

Help me. 

My hand opens,

And fear, 

Fear spirals down, down, down.

All that fear I felt,

I can breathe, 

The weight is gone, 

I'm not scared anymore.

I'm not scared.

I can live.

One of My Fave Songs by Owl City

I have this thing where I find a song I love and I listen to it all the time. And Owl City is, like, one of my all time favorite bands, so it makes sense that one of his songs would be one I'd listen to lots. XD

Tidal Wave

Tidal Wave is the song I'll listen to over and over again. There's this one line in it where Owl City sings: "I forget the last time I felt brave, I just recall insecurity." 

That's sometimes the way I feel. I feel as if I don't do anything that's grand or big. Like, I'm a coward for not stepping out of my comfort zone very much. Because I feel as if I just don't know how.

I know that sounds really, really, negative and sad and depressing and every other synonym for unhappy. 

I'm not even sure what I'm trying to get across here. I just want to let all of you who are scared and worried that you are not alone. You are never alone. 

Even if you do something that seems really small that scares you, you're being brave. I don't care if it seems like everyone else was doing that small scary thing long before you. It's your life, not anyone else's. Don't get discouraged if you feel like you're not growing or changing. Change takes time. 

Keep resting in the love God has for you and you'll find that one day, when you need to stand up for something big, you'll have the strength to do it and be brave, be courageous. 

And do you know why you'll be able to do it? 

It's because for a long time you were learning how much your Heavenly Father loves you with an impossibly huge love, that it doesn't matter to you anymore what other people think. It doesn't matter if you fall or fail. Because you know that God's right there with you and He will help you get back up and encourage you and give you all the grace and mercy and love you'll ever need. 

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Wow, I wasn't expecting to get all deep on you guys. XD I think I was figuring things out for myself, too, as I was typing that up there. 

So... *takes a deep breath and lets it out slowly* Yeah, that's what I wanted to tell you guys. :P The song, Tidal Wave, ends in a much happier note than when it started. It talks about courage is now coming over like a tidal wave. And how you don't need a telescope to see there's hope. 

Rest in God's love and you'll find the courage you need.

I'm a Dreamer and a Love Month Surprise!

 I edited this picture but the picture of the night sky is not mine. [source]

Maybe this is weird topic to talk about, but I feel like talking about anyway. Cause, we all have 'em, so why not address it? XD

I dream, you dream, we all dream. It's a fact of life. :P 

And today, my faery friends, I am going to talk to you about the wacky and wonderful dreams I've had in the past. 

I'm pretty sure you've all had some sort of dream where someone's running after you, right? Well, I don't think you had a dream where an onion chased you! 

Have you heard of VeggieTales or The Lord of the Rings? Or how about The Lord of the Beans??? For all of you who don't know, The Lord of the Beans is a VeggieTales retelling of The Lord of the Rings. 

And in that movie, the veggie that is supposed to be like Gollum is an onion... Named Ahem. Yup, Ahem. XDDD And he is creepy! 

HE HAS NO EYES. LIKE. THAT'S CREEPY. 

I watched The Lord of the Beans when I was pretty little. And in the movie, Ahem chases the main character while moaning and groaning about needing his bean or something. 

And I had a nightmare where I was in that scene and Ahem was chasing me and moaning and calling my name. As a child, I was quite scared. XD Imagine yourself running from an onion, like that's creepy. And it's a giant onion with no eyes and stringy hair. >.< Talk about scary. XDD

In my tween/early teen stage of my life, I had a phase where I thought Teen Beach Movie and Ross Lynch were the best things since cake pops. Okay, I don't think I liked them more than cake pops! XD Cake pops are pretty hard to beat. :P 

In my dream, I think I just walked out of my house into my garage and my garage door was open. And, lo and behold, there was a whole film crew and cast on my driveway, including Ross Lynch. 

My whole family was just standing in our garage watching the movie people film Teen Beach Movie in front of us. I think my sister, Lostfairy, and I whispered about how crazy it was that Ross Lynch was right there, on our driveway. And then, I think I went to go talk to Ross, because why not? Who wouldn't want to talk to the cutest guy on the planet? Trust me when I say this, I DO NOT think Ross is cute, anymore. XD He has been replaced by other better looking guys on my celeb crush list. XDDD :P 

I think I just talked to him about random stuff (I don't remember what we talked about... :P) and I think he smiled at me. And I was happy. :P

This was the best dream of my life! Seriously. I wish I could go back to it. 

It was autumn. And everything had a golden glow to it. You know like in movies when there is a happy memory or flashback, there's a yellow filter on it? Well, that is what it looked like in my dream. 

I knew my family was all home and my parents were working in the flower beds in the front of the house. And my two sisters were helping me get two bright red balloons tied to my wrists. (I don't know where my bro was in this dream... Maybe in his bedroom? Or somewhere else outside? XDD) And once they were done helping me, I slowly started to lift up from the ground. I was flying! It was the most amazing thing in the world. If I tilted one way, I'd float that way and same thing happened if I went the other way. I think my mom warned me not to get to close to the road behind our house. XD But I wasn't worried. 

And the dream ended with me slowing floating over the hedge in my backyard. And my sisters were asking me when they could get a turn with the balloons.  

Everything was so happy and peaceful in that dream. :3 I loved it. <3

I don't get a lot of nightmares, but this is one I remember very clearly.

I was in a movie. And I was the bad guy...?! XD And I was in this teeny, tiny igloo (that was bigger on the inside than it was on the outside :P) and the igloo was a on a tall square mountain with northern lights in the background.

In the igloo, it was a science lab and I was the scientist... XD And there was a man and a lady who were supposed to be the good guys in the movie. And it was an intense scene and I was going to do something evil when all of a sudden the lady stabbed me with a needle. And she stabbed me right in the neck, too! Like, how rude! :O

The needle was supposed to be fake because it was in a movie... But it wasn't.

Everything started to get black on the edges of my vision and I think I had fallen when the lady stabbed me. The lady realized what she had done and that needle with the poison was real, and she kept saying she was sorry.

And then, as everything went black, I thought I was going to die.

I woke up in the dream a while later. I was lying on a bed in the igloo. And I had a bandage on my neck. And the lady was with me, too. I don't know where the man went... XD

I knew that I was a bit better but not out of the woods yet. I took off my bandage and felt the spot where the needle with the poison had gone in. There was a hole. And inside the hole in my neck it was crystallized.

The lady said that the poison was one that turned all the insides of a person into crystal...? And then the lady handed me the part of the crystal that would fit inside the hole in my neck like a puzzle piece. It looked really weird. I think the crystal was blue with a dot of red in the middle. :P

And then I knew if I wanted to live, I had to run around the outside of the igloo to get all the poison out of my system. And so I did. And it was cold and the wind was blowing super hard and there was barely any room for me to run around the ledge of the mountain.

And that's where the dream ended.

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Heh, aren't dreams so weird? XD

On a completely different note! Since this month is the love month, I thought I wanted to show you faeries a little love. XD

Starting today and ending on the 28th of February at midnight, you can request one piece of art you would like me to draw! All you have to do is fill out this little form below so I know what you would like me to draw. :) And there's one condition: I only really draw one chibi/manga person in a picture, so I can't do more than one person and it can't be animals either, sorry!!!

-Manga or chibi:

-Clothes:

-Hair:

-Eye color:

-Pose (if you want, I can decide that for you if you'd like):

-Emotion/personality:

-Anything else you want me to add:

 I hope you have fun thinking of who you want me to draw! :D

Happy (late) Valentine's Day! <3 (What kinds of dreams do you dream? :O)

Here's to New Adventures

Happy New Year!!! That's right! I'm posting for the second time it two weeks on a MONDAY. XD I just felt like I needed to post something today. In case you can't read what it says on the picture, it reads "To live will be an awfully big adventure. -Peter Pan."

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Life's full of adventures. Sure, maybe they aren't all fighting monsters or learning that you're a wizard or going through a magical wardrobe, but their still adventures. 

Do you remember that compliment someone gave you that made your day?

Or that time when the sun was shining and you felt like it was shining just for you?

Do you remember laughing so hard you were crying? 

Or that time you tried something you've never done before and you weren't sure it would work, but it did?

Or that time when someone you loved left you?

Do you remember that time when you found the One who loves you more than you could ever imagine? 

Sometimes adventures are just small moments in life. Sometimes they're life changing ones. Whatever they are, they are still adventures. 

Life is a story waiting to be told. Live out the dreams and wishes you have. Don't be afraid to try new things. Even if you may fail, get back up again. 

Something I've told myself a lot this past year is "enjoy every minute of every day." I'm not saying that there isn't hard stuff in life, I'm just saying look to the One who holds your heart. (That's something I really need to work on.) He can fix anything that is broken.  

Life is so much better if you give it your all and try new things and learn to laugh more.

"To live will be an awfully big adventure." -Peter Pan