Tidal Wave is the song I'll listen to over and over again. There's this one line in it where Owl City sings: "I forget the last time I felt brave, I just recall insecurity."
That's sometimes the way I feel. I feel as if I don't do anything that's grand or big. Like, I'm a coward for not stepping out of my comfort zone very much. Because I feel as if I just don't know how.
I know that sounds really, really, negative and sad and depressing and every other synonym for unhappy.
I'm not even sure what I'm trying to get across here. I just want to let all of you who are scared and worried that you are not alone. You are never alone.
Even if you do something that seems really small that scares you, you're being brave. I don't care if it seems like everyone else was doing that small scary thing long before you. It's your life, not anyone else's. Don't get discouraged if you feel like you're not growing or changing. Change takes time.
Keep resting in the love God has for you and you'll find that one day, when you need to stand up for something big, you'll have the strength to do it and be brave, be courageous.
And do you know why you'll be able to do it?
It's because for a long time you were learning how much your Heavenly Father loves you with an impossibly huge love, that it doesn't matter to you anymore what other people think. It doesn't matter if you fall or fail. Because you know that God's right there with you and He will help you get back up and encourage you and give you all the grace and mercy and love you'll ever need.
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Wow, I wasn't expecting to get all deep on you guys. XD I think I was figuring things out for myself, too, as I was typing that up there.
So... *takes a deep breath and lets it out slowly* Yeah, that's what I wanted to tell you guys. :P The song, Tidal Wave, ends in a much happier note than when it started. It talks about courage is now coming over like a tidal wave. And how you don't need a telescope to see there's hope.
Rest in God's love and you'll find the courage you need.